This text is part of my ongoing reflection on self-awareness, emotional patterns, and conscious growth.
I have always been a curious person and over the years I have invested in multiple ways of curing my mind and body. I have read many self-help books, joined group therapy, did EMDR, tried holistic approaches and what not. It has all been of great help to my progress and I am thankful for all the information that I have gathered along the way, but one thing I noticed is that they all keep something from you. These methods all seem to be a great stepping stone but it is as if the ceiling is suspended. I spent years redecorating the room, unaware that the real problem was hidden above the suspended ceiling.
Whether this is done deliberately or not I do not know, but I have found another layer that, in my case, is worth your attention. We have all grown up in a system and most people are participating. In this system spirituality is mocked and witchcraft and the likes are portrayed as fairytales.
We are made to believe that all things we cannot see with our bare eyes should be avoided as truth and labeled as pseudo-science or worse, quackery.
I don’t know about you, but something does not add up for me here. The people who are actively keeping us away from this information are making all their movies about it. Look at all the video clips of current artists, drenched in blood and other sacrificial imagery. Or just look at their outfits on Halloween. They’re telling us all this is bullshit, but at the same time they’re throwing it in our faces.
What is going on here and why should we be cautious? I started noticing a pattern when the monsters in my circle started pointing out other monsters. I realized that the situation in my life is the exact same as we see on the world stage. Monsters, pointing towards other monsters. And this seems to be their trick of keeping us stuck in a loop. They don’t want you to focus on them, so they point somewhere else. They are saying that witchcraft and sorcery is a bunch of bogus whilst they are practicing it on us. They must have been laughing so hard.
It is easy to understand how people can believe in Wi-Fi and radio and in the same sentence dismiss things as frequencies and spellcasting. Just look at our language. Our tell-a-vision is broad-casting a program for us to be played. We literally press play. We literally accept their spellcasting in our lives. On a daily basis.
We are under a collective spell and it is time that we all wake the f*ck up.
Can’t you see? After all these years of investing in your health, you are still stuck? We have learnt to never doubt the system, whether this is your family system or the system that is operating the world does not matter, they are layers of the same onion. The system wants you to doubt it enough so you go crazy, but not enough for you to breach the ceiling. And so they teach us to hunt for money all our lives, when money is nothing more than energy.
And whilst we are on the hunt for money, we forget to chase our own energy. And it leaves us feeling drained. Drained enough to never fight your own cause. But tell me, are you feeling great? Because if your daily life feels like a constant burden to you, it might be time to break the suspended ceiling and start implementing spirituality in your life. It is not normal to feel drained at all times. It means something or someone is depleting you from your energy source. And here you are, trying to chase money, whilst feeling like absolute shit.
We are taught how to control our thoughts by using meditation and breathwork and the likes. But nobody teaches us to protect ourselves from unseen forces. And I have found these forces to be very real. I have fought so hard to regain my own sanity, but it always ended up with me feeling horrible from time to time. So what is actually happening here and how do I know that there is more space hidden above my ceiling?
Well, I started protecting myself. On a daily basis.
I would start every day with throwing people out of my energy. And it is quite simple, it is a declaration that you can put out whenever you feel like it. So I would start my mornings with expelling people from my energy, simply by saying “he or she is not allowed in my energy field”. And the results are baffling. After refusing my sister to enter my energy, I completely triggered her and it made me laugh so hard.
At one point she tried to confront me, to trigger my ‘madness’, but this time I was so ready for it. I listened to her and calmly replied to all of her nonsense and instead of triggering me, she ended up triggering herself. When I did not give her the intended reaction, she blurted out that “I do not know how strong my energy is, that I could make anything happen and that I simply was not aware of it”. Well, guess what? I am aware and I know exactly what I witnessed there.
Me protecting my energy on a daily basis left her to feel depleted.
So much so that I triggered her into calling out my strength. What a joke. I just looked at her and inside I couldn’t help but rejoice over the fact that she was just angry because I denied her the access that she was so used to. And so it is as simple as this. I have told you before. All we need is awareness and a decision to change. Or in this case, a decision to see things for what they really are.
How I noticed that other people were trying to keep me small? No matter how hard I worked, I would always experience scarcity. No matter how kind I was, I would always experience adversity. No matter how much I meditated, the feeling of being inadequate always haunted my mind. And it did not match up. My character is of a warrior. My character is kind, loving and forgiving. Why would a person who exudes confidence and self-love, attract horrible feelings and emotions all the time? It just didn’t make any sense to me. It had to come from somewhere else.
And so now I have broken through my suspended ceiling.
And above this fake ceiling of mine are the people that have tried to keep me down.
And, in all honesty, it is not really them. Because they all say and do the same things. If you are into pattern recognition, then you are in for a treat. Their patterns are showing as if hidden behind glass. I have now added protection to my list. Because sometimes we feel sad, but many times this sadness is placed upon us. It is placed upon us by people who fear us. Because energy is the original currency and they do not want you to find this out. They want to keep you small, so they can feast off of your energy.
Protect yourself from people that guide you in the wrong direction. Use your discernment at all times. Ask yourself constantly, does this person have my best interest at heart? I mean, why was my sister actively advocating for me to go back to my abuser? Because they like to see you small! Because it makes them feel bigger! And it needs to stop.
We all possess the power of greatness,
but some people lost their spark following a system that is designed to keep everyone small.
Your family does not want better for you because it would reflect on them being small. The system does not want better for you, because it operates on control. Competition is their weapon because they fear that there can only be one winner. But it is a load of crap. We can all reach this state, we can all break through our ceiling. But in order to do this, we need awareness and the decision to change. Because only you can save yourself from these chains. Only you can break through your ceiling. I cannot do it for you, I can only show you how I have done this.
And so the message here is that it is harmful to look up to people who are actively trying to keep you small.
Break through the suspended ceiling.
You might discover that the room you were told to live in was never the whole house.
Free yourself from the energies of other people.
Live your life.
This text is an open reflection.
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“Aim for the sky and you’ll reach the ceiling.
Aim for the ceiling and you’ll stay on the floor.”
